You Cant just like half of who a person is...

She says, &I agree
In any relationship.
Friends, lovers, boyfriends, girlfriends, family, etc
If there is a side you don't like
Address it, don't avoid it.
People always claim they can't stand fake people, &all this other bullshit
But how many people really say everything that's on their mind; or doesn't talk shit about the next person.
Someone will go to one of their friends &talk so much shit about girl A, to girl B, but then she will go and hang out all day with girl A &claim we're best friends.
Someone will say "do you" because they aren't ready for a relationship, but the moment you show interest in another person, that original person talks shit.

You can't like half, you should be able to accept everyone for who they are, and if there is something you disagree with, tell them. Don't talk shit to everyone else, &then smile in their presence.

The person I practice this method with the most is Raymond. He knows me 100% &knows I tell him whatever bugs me, when it bugs me, &i like that he does the same. Being honest, &100 in a relationship is the best because then you're both on the same page and openly know what's going on.

May Not..

She always uses them
No matter what
She will probably never experience love
Because the one who tried, she played and never had interest
He would give her the world, if she allowed him
But her selfishness allowed her not to let him get close
Instead she fell in love with another guy
Who "loves" her
I don't believe it
She lies to herself and her world
&truly wants to believe him,
But everyone knows
He's played her just like she's played him
What kind of relationship will that set
for their "future"
Who knows?
Hopefully she does find love
Because I am a hopeless romantic and hopes
that everyone will enjoy it at least once in their life

But unfortunately She may not.

How Did I?...

How did I ever date...
Ever wonder how you ever dated him?
Look into your past, &I'm sure there was at least one regret.
If not you're lucky, but I think most of us wonder what the hell was I thinking?
What did I see in him?
Was I blind?
Was it a quick rebound?
One night stand that turned into more?
I don't know, but I do wonder how did I ever date him

Homework...

I really really want to blog something interesting for you guys to read...
BUT
Unfortunately my life is hectic right now
I have a midterm tomorrow on the Bill of Rights
Along with the debates leading up to the Great Compromise
I have a test due by Saturday night
One of my niece's birthdays is today
Happy Bday Izzy
I have to complete my traffic school soon to get
my certificate faxed over to the Courthouse
So my insurance doesn't go up
I have to study flash cards
Type up another essay
&Bullshit a rough draft tonight!
&Still do some paperwork for work over the weekend.

Beautiful
Well I hope all is well.
I am going to try and sneak in a BLOG story tonight
Email me topics: rmbarraza9@yahoo.com
Or send them anonymously at www.formspring.me/rosemarie9
Bye!!! (:

Number One

Can you love two people at the same time?
They fell in love at a young age,
thought nothing can tear them apart,
 little did they know life, distance, curiosity,
and the lust of others would get in the way.
He's her true love no one knows each other
 the way they do. However she always thought
 is this it? There were other guys, some she
wasn't proud of. They all made her feel good
 for a minute, but he made her feel good all
 the time. Why did she do it? Maybe he wasnt
 showing her the attention she needed, maybe
she was curious of what else was out there?
 There are a million excuses, but bottom line
 is she made some mistakes, it's the biggest;
if not the only regret. She hurt the guy who
loved her more than anything, he always put
 her first... Until now. Now it's as if they have
to start all over, she's patiently waiting for her
 true love to come around and sweep her off
her feet just like all those years ago. He's a
great guy, but is he still the one for her? Things
 have changed, time has passed. Their love for
 each other has yet to fade even a little, but the
 trust is still missing. They broke up and went
separate ways and the love remained constant. She
 thought she could get away maybe find another,
 he hid his broken heart by going out and trying
 to find another "her". In his mind she would
always be there little did he know she was
 getting tired and her feelings were starting to change.
On the other hand; THIS guy:
He's amazing, he's kind and only wants to please her.
 She was fascinated with the new "love" and attention
 of this guy. She thought she loved him, she tried to love
 him. Will it work? They say opposites attract but it's
more than that. They are so different; music, friends,
style, beliefs. Some say he's a filler, someone to keep
 her mind occupied. They became best friends first
and she feels comfortable. However many nights
spent sleeping next to him only lead to thoughts of
the one who has her heart. She wakes up puts a
smile on and pretends everything is just fine. Each
day that passes is a constant struggle of what do you want?

 They both have expressed feelings of their love to her and the choice is not easy. She loves them both , but in completely different ways. Her love for the new guy grows as time passes but can she ever really love

anyone the way she loved her number one?

Smile

Smile because you can
Smile because you aren't down there
Smile because you can smile on your own
Smile because your life is nice
Smile because your relationship is beautiful
Smile because you're leaving the drama behind
Smile because you can be the bigger person
Smile because family is everything
Smile because everyday life gets better
Smile because people believe in you
Smile because your true friends are a dial away
Smile because you're actually important to someone
Smile because you surround yourself with great people
Smile because you can wake up in the morning
Smile because you have someone you love unconditionally
Smile because there are worse situations
Smile because someone's watching over
Smile because you're smart enough to know your worth
Smile because you make them talk

AND today WE can smile because OBAMA is President again!!!
Smile, Smile, Smile
Smile because you can bite your tongue hard enough to keep your mouth shut, to not stoop to anyone's level, and to listen to the guidance you were given by wise people. Listen to your heart, and don't make a fast quick decision because those who dwell on the past will forever live in the past, those who move on can smile and be happy. I encourage those of you who continue to create and restore problems in your life, take a step back WITH me, and ask yourself "Is it worth it?"

I don't think so, You shouldn't think so, so let's all smile, and those who don't want to: KEEP READING! (:

Mystery.

It's been days
It's been weeks
It's the longest time between
It's been weird
It's been different
It's been us
The whole thing is sad
It's a bit ridiculous
Sometimes in the middle
of the day I think about
going back; but then
reality hits me
&thats impossible.
The only thing I can
do is live today
&today means without you
It's not killing me,
I hope you're okay.
But, now I wonder whats next?
What happens now?
What do we do?
But those questions will remain unanswered
The conversations will
be left unspoken
The texts will never be exchanged
The thought will remain that
&we will remain, a mystery?

Old Love Notes

Dear Love,
You always meant so much to her, she hopes you know that. Although it never worked out, she's always considered you a friend. There's something the two of you have that connects you until now. It's been years and they can pick up where they left off no problem. She knows you still love her, &she still loves you! She wishes you nothing but the best, and hopes you find your true love one day.

Xoxo
-"L"

Sneaky Sucker

She met him
Impressed him
Caressed him
&Undressed him
That was their "relationship"
Although they were never official
Occasionally they'd
Go out together in public
But majority of their
time was in the bedroom
Because she was not over her ex, not ready to be exclusive with him.
He wanted her &she did not,
When she wanted him, it was too late.

The whole time he
thought he had a good girl
Only interested in him
Only at his house
Only in his bed...
Thinkin he was the only one,
Not knowing she
was a sneaky sucker.
She had never left her ex,
She couldn't .. she was
in love with her ex,
&in lust with him.
He would never amount to the importance she put on her ex.

They could have
been a cute couple
Possibly lived together
With a life of their own
But... He was not for her
She was a sneaky sucker
Using him to pass time
Until she was back in
Someone else's arms....

Know who you're with, know your worth, know when you're being played, because there are so many sneaky suckers out there, male &female.

Hakuna Matata

We all know right?

It means no worries, for the rest of your lifeeeeeee...

It's November,

it came so damn quick.

I'm already twenty-one, 

it's amazing how so many things have 

changed and occurred this month.

But they're for the better...

When things go wrong, 

We cannot dwell on them forever,

We have to let it go sometime,

&this is my sometime.

If a guy/girl breaks up with you, 

It's hard but you need to get over it.

If you lose a friend,

evaluate the relationship,

if it's not worth the fight let it go.

If you can save any relationship,

save what's important, move on.

But sooner or later,

we all must let it go 

because now you're wasting your time.

So Hakuna Matata,

Live worry free....

Look again... L.O.V.E

Does love have an image?
I think, most people assume what a "typical" couple or "love" should look like.
Personally I think love (Couple Wise) looks happy, that's what love means to me.
Love WON'T always look happy, it has its ups and downs, it has its hard moments, it's not always going to be perfect, but it should be worth it.
The best kind of love is loving your best friend that knows you in &out, whether that's a male or female.
It's sharing a bond with someone so much alike that you don't want to be away from that person.

Some people have found their love, some people are still searching for their love, some people have known their love forever, some people sadly may never meet their love...

I've met so many couples that I feel are in love &they have that Bond that keeps them together! Even though I don't show it enough sometimes, I feel so lucky to have my best friend with me everyday; &he loves me with all his heart.
I've made bad choices in my life before, but he was a great choice.

Message: Love does not have an "image," girls can love girls, guys can love guys, love is love. Love with an open heart and have an open mind to the different kinds of love in the world.

Here's some cool young couples I know...
1.) Carlos &Anthony (Friends) 2.) Brooke &Val (Sis In Law&Sis) 3.) Katrina &Edwin (Cousin&Her Bf)4.) Raymond &I 5.) Randy &Ariana (Sis&Bro in Law)

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Mirror Mirror.

Little Girl

Look in the mirror

Fix your face

Look at who you've become

Look at where you're at in life

Look at your surroundings

Are you proud?

Are you faithful yet?

Does he know the truth?

Do you know the truth?

Oh yes, yes you do.

You've been told many times.

But like a little girl

you still stick around. 

He's playing you.

She's seen it.

They all know it.

He knows it.

But he can't do better

so he stays.

Don't worry, you two might work out

he may lose interest in them,

or maybe he already did.

But don't you know your self worth?

Or are you not looking in the mirror?

Look again...

Can you see yourself?

You're a dime ..now,

but he treats you like a dusty penny.

But the funny thing is,

YOU let him.

Oh well,

Guess I'll grab the popcorn 

&continue watching. 

From now on,

My Lips are Sealed...

-Best Wishes You Two.

His face....

If she ever sees him again,
she'd be speechless.
She doesn't even remember the last time she saw him,
or what interaction they had.
They went from not knowing each other,
to casual friends,
to officially boyfriend &girlfriend,
to breaking up,
but continuing the casual sex.
He was the best she ever had,
but he had so many...

If she saw his face,
she would stop in the moment,
&freeze, unknowingly.
She would reminisce about their friendship,
&bad romance, but most of all their bond.

If she saw him,
honestly....she'd probably run and hide.
Or pretend she hadn't noticed him
because the bad romance they shared
ended so wrong.

BUT....
that's only if she saw his face.
This post probably jinxed her
&she may see his face,
but the girl she was back then
is a totally different girl than she is now.

Except when HE's around....

Vol. I Chpt. 3 Love Triangle..

This new guy seems interesting, we'll call him "S"

But she doesn't know that he's a player...

See the thing about her, is she likes to see the "good" in people,

She will learn this is sometimes a bad thing, later in life.

She trusts too easily,

&Everyone can see that.

&Those who don't care take advantage.

They date, hang out at a local "spot" 

She's so into him, he's merely interested in her...

The summer is half way through 

when he begins his sport, and she starts hers.

Her new hobby,

has lead her to yet another guy.

He's different than the usual guys she's been into

so maybe this is a good thing.

She and "S" end up breaking up,

because he wasn't into it,

and she wasn't into that.

Now that he is somewhat out of the picture

she can focus on getting to know "B"

She and "B" start to talk

&like usual

She is falling fast.....

The only problem is 

Now that "S" sees her with "B" who is 

clearly interested in her,

"S" wants to slither back in....

They're all in a love triangle

no one wanted to be a part of..But

Will she let him?

Boss Bitch

She's not sitting at home thinking about what she should do,

she's out doing it.

She's not wishing she had a car,

 she's driving it.

She's not texting on a droid,

she has the iPhone.

She isn't snooping through her MAN's phone,

she doesn't have to.

She isn't asking to borrow $$$,

it's in her bank account.

She's not a bitch,

she's THE bitch.

She doesn't need advice on "fashion,"

she gives it. 

She's not like you,

she's totally opposite.

She's not waiting on a ride,

she's the driver. 

She's not behind you, 

she's leading you.

She didn't just start,

she's been in front of you.

She's not anxious,

patience is her thing.

She's not impressed, 

&when she is she'll clap.

Like you,

She doesn't need an army.

She's can stand her own,

&do it proudly.

She doesn't need more than one guy,

he's enough. 

She doesn't need you,

she has herself. 

She doesn't waste time, 

she studies.

Now that you're gone,

her mind will be open,

and she has learned a lesson. 

You don't NEED anyone; but family

and those most important to you.

She is doing fine, 

she will do fine,

and she's dedicated,

to making life that much better...

Vol. I Chpt. 2 Dumped....

She started dating a new guy,

She thinks he's so great

But she doesn't know the game...

They make it official and date for a while

Somehow he talks her into ditching school,

The ditching becomes a habit

&soon they have sex, for their first time.

She's so young, she's made a mistake.

Couple weeks later he breaks up with her...

After going out with her friends to local hangouts she meets a new guy;

He doesn't notice her though,

Until one day he was waiting in front of her school ,coincidentally...

A week or so later

They would become a couple....

She was a hopeless romantic... Waiting for the right one to come around...

Her....

Don't trust her

Don't love her

Don't touch her

Don't f___ her

Don't start her

Don't stop her

Don't kiss her

Don't hug her

Don't watch her

Don't ignore her

Don't talk to her

Don't text her

Don't teach her

Don't learn from her

Don't feed her

Don't mistreat her

Don't lie to her

Don't speak to her

Don't use her

Don't abuse her

Don't do anything, to her

Because she's watching you!

Vol. I Chpt 1.) Not so "In"....

She's not a loner she's in the "in" crowd

But she still feels left out

She's in middle school &

Wanting to rebel.

She wants to experiment with drinking, smoking, &sex but she's so young.

She has no guidance; but doesn't feel she needs any since she's doing so well in school already; she just wants to feel older.

She dances, dresses, &acts like an 18 yr old.. But she has no idea about that life yet since she's just entered adolescents.

No one can tell her anything because she's on the honor roll &involved in school.

She's had a couple boyfriends already.. She doesn't even know what a real relationship is?

Although she has already had her first kiss with her third boyfriend "j."

People who watch her carefully hope she doesn't go down the wrong road, sure her grades are fine now, but what about next year? She's hanging with the wrong crowd, &shes enjoying every minute of it.

Someone needs to sit her down, &slow her down, on this path she's only headed for trouble...

But that's exactly what SHE wants....

What do YOU have?..

I am a girl who has so many situations in life,

BUT although I know that,

I work harder to untangle the problems.

I try to keep an open mind about what I have;

I have an amazing family,

Amazing parents, who're very supportive 

love me unconditionally, accept everything I do, 

raised me right, &most of all they're proud of me.

I have siblings who love me, and are always there to have my back.

Valerie, Serina, &Michael, the siblings I grew up with 

&look up to...

I have cousins; &cousins who're like sisters.

Breanna who is my closed diary;

the girl who acts as a book to my problems,

&has never given anyone the key.

I have in-laws who're the best, and so great to be around: Ascencio's, Gilbert, &Serafin. 

I have friends; who can look me in my eyes &tell me the truth.

One of the most loyal people I have in my life 

is my boyfriend, best friend, and better half.

He has been there for me at my highs and lows,

he has seen me in every aspect; and he still loves me.

I am lucky enough to be surrounded by the people I love;

&the people that love me.

They're there for me everyday

&this is to say Thank you.

We don't appreciate the little things in life;

well I don't, at least not enough. 

We never know when these things will be gone, 

we never act like we will never see these things again.

WHO AM I?

I am a lucky girl; who's blessed to have this group of people in my life.

Let's be thankful for what we have;

because if we aren't 

we will regret it one day....

Lead your life everyday in a positive way,

forget your problems, 

and focus on what makes you live everyday.

&Let those people know how special they are to you;

even when they get sick of it.

Be happy &grateful; because some people will never experience what you have....

The ONE..

The one
You can't always be the one.
Usually she always is the one.
But if you're always the one,
Then you're on a one way street.
A one way street is not where she
Wants to be...

She is the one who speaks up,
Says what on her mind,
Doesn't avoid or ignore a situation.
She has always been seen as mature,
Responsible, &A problem solver.
But... How long can you be the only one? When will someone else be the one?
When will someone not care what others think, &speak what on their mind? Or... Has not one person thought in their mind that anything needs to be said?

The one, is tired of being the one, she has always had a big heart no matter the situation esp. when it comes to the people she cares about, but when the people she cares about choose not to care about what's going on,
Then lets call it a day, because last she checked high school is over, college is taking forever, jobs are stressful, &planning events is a hassle; in other words, the kids grew up, they're now adults; young adults.
Adults who know what's right &wrong, adults that can admit their mistakes; &adults that can address a situation.

If that's not what these young adults are capable of, then these young adults will simply become mere acquaintances...

Broken Relationship

Broken Relationship?

What happens to it?

This is a quick story of a lady and gent

who were once in love.

They were very young,

&their relationship was encouraged by others.

They were a match, &it seemed the only

problem in the way was their curiosity...

At first, like always, their love and lust for each other

took advantage, and as time went on their love grew.

They always went out and made their relationship fun,

then some years went by, & keeping it interesting was the challenge.

They were happy for a while, but like other couples

they wanted to see what else was out there.

It's hard when you're in love so young,

you don't want to wonder "What If?" when you're older.

That's a personal decision, 

of whether to fight for the relationship,

let it go, or try and do both. 

Yes, try and do both is and sounds bad, but everyone makes mistakes. 

Incidents happened, and the two ended up in different books, 

He was behind in chapters, while she was writing her own. 

Her love for him never went away, but her curiosity grew,

more and more everyday.

The only thing that stood between them were 

the mistakes both of them made, 

but both of them knew, and couldn't stay away from each other,

 nor could they be together.

It's a sad story, but a lesson learned because 

Love is a hard thing to handle, especially that young. 

Can you blame someone for mistakes they've made in their past forever, 

or can you love them enough to forgive them and take a second chance?

The saddest thing in life is to never experience real love.... the best is to find your true love. The worst is to THINK you found a real love, but in reality your real love is still searching for YOU. 

Some things....

Some things are better with out,

some are not,

some act better than others, 

some do not.

Some have a stick up their ass,

some have their head up another's, 

some may not know anything,

some may know it all.

Some act all the time, 

some may stay quiet,

some may always say it out loud, 

and some may avoid it.

SOME are too busy,

some aren't busy enough,

some are guys, 

some are girls.

Some are closer than the ones

expected to be,

Some point fingers,

some just whisper when they can,

some of you can relate, 

others are lucky enough not to

some keep it a secret,

&others don't...

Think about it.

&see what happens...