His face....

If she ever sees him again,
she'd be speechless.
She doesn't even remember the last time she saw him,
or what interaction they had.
They went from not knowing each other,
to casual friends,
to officially boyfriend &girlfriend,
to breaking up,
but continuing the casual sex.
He was the best she ever had,
but he had so many...

If she saw his face,
she would stop in the moment,
&freeze, unknowingly.
She would reminisce about their friendship,
&bad romance, but most of all their bond.

If she saw him,
honestly....she'd probably run and hide.
Or pretend she hadn't noticed him
because the bad romance they shared
ended so wrong.

BUT....
that's only if she saw his face.
This post probably jinxed her
&she may see his face,
but the girl she was back then
is a totally different girl than she is now.

Except when HE's around....

Vol. I Chpt. 3 Love Triangle..

This new guy seems interesting, we'll call him "S"

But she doesn't know that he's a player...

See the thing about her, is she likes to see the "good" in people,

She will learn this is sometimes a bad thing, later in life.

She trusts too easily,

&Everyone can see that.

&Those who don't care take advantage.

They date, hang out at a local "spot" 

She's so into him, he's merely interested in her...

The summer is half way through 

when he begins his sport, and she starts hers.

Her new hobby,

has lead her to yet another guy.

He's different than the usual guys she's been into

so maybe this is a good thing.

She and "S" end up breaking up,

because he wasn't into it,

and she wasn't into that.

Now that he is somewhat out of the picture

she can focus on getting to know "B"

She and "B" start to talk

&like usual

She is falling fast.....

The only problem is 

Now that "S" sees her with "B" who is 

clearly interested in her,

"S" wants to slither back in....

They're all in a love triangle

no one wanted to be a part of..But

Will she let him?

Boss Bitch

She's not sitting at home thinking about what she should do,

she's out doing it.

She's not wishing she had a car,

 she's driving it.

She's not texting on a droid,

she has the iPhone.

She isn't snooping through her MAN's phone,

she doesn't have to.

She isn't asking to borrow $$$,

it's in her bank account.

She's not a bitch,

she's THE bitch.

She doesn't need advice on "fashion,"

she gives it. 

She's not like you,

she's totally opposite.

She's not waiting on a ride,

she's the driver. 

She's not behind you, 

she's leading you.

She didn't just start,

she's been in front of you.

She's not anxious,

patience is her thing.

She's not impressed, 

&when she is she'll clap.

Like you,

She doesn't need an army.

She's can stand her own,

&do it proudly.

She doesn't need more than one guy,

he's enough. 

She doesn't need you,

she has herself. 

She doesn't waste time, 

she studies.

Now that you're gone,

her mind will be open,

and she has learned a lesson. 

You don't NEED anyone; but family

and those most important to you.

She is doing fine, 

she will do fine,

and she's dedicated,

to making life that much better...

Vol. I Chpt. 2 Dumped....

She started dating a new guy,

She thinks he's so great

But she doesn't know the game...

They make it official and date for a while

Somehow he talks her into ditching school,

The ditching becomes a habit

&soon they have sex, for their first time.

She's so young, she's made a mistake.

Couple weeks later he breaks up with her...

After going out with her friends to local hangouts she meets a new guy;

He doesn't notice her though,

Until one day he was waiting in front of her school ,coincidentally...

A week or so later

They would become a couple....

She was a hopeless romantic... Waiting for the right one to come around...

Her....

Don't trust her

Don't love her

Don't touch her

Don't f___ her

Don't start her

Don't stop her

Don't kiss her

Don't hug her

Don't watch her

Don't ignore her

Don't talk to her

Don't text her

Don't teach her

Don't learn from her

Don't feed her

Don't mistreat her

Don't lie to her

Don't speak to her

Don't use her

Don't abuse her

Don't do anything, to her

Because she's watching you!

Vol. I Chpt 1.) Not so "In"....

She's not a loner she's in the "in" crowd

But she still feels left out

She's in middle school &

Wanting to rebel.

She wants to experiment with drinking, smoking, &sex but she's so young.

She has no guidance; but doesn't feel she needs any since she's doing so well in school already; she just wants to feel older.

She dances, dresses, &acts like an 18 yr old.. But she has no idea about that life yet since she's just entered adolescents.

No one can tell her anything because she's on the honor roll &involved in school.

She's had a couple boyfriends already.. She doesn't even know what a real relationship is?

Although she has already had her first kiss with her third boyfriend "j."

People who watch her carefully hope she doesn't go down the wrong road, sure her grades are fine now, but what about next year? She's hanging with the wrong crowd, &shes enjoying every minute of it.

Someone needs to sit her down, &slow her down, on this path she's only headed for trouble...

But that's exactly what SHE wants....

What do YOU have?..

I am a girl who has so many situations in life,

BUT although I know that,

I work harder to untangle the problems.

I try to keep an open mind about what I have;

I have an amazing family,

Amazing parents, who're very supportive 

love me unconditionally, accept everything I do, 

raised me right, &most of all they're proud of me.

I have siblings who love me, and are always there to have my back.

Valerie, Serina, &Michael, the siblings I grew up with 

&look up to...

I have cousins; &cousins who're like sisters.

Breanna who is my closed diary;

the girl who acts as a book to my problems,

&has never given anyone the key.

I have in-laws who're the best, and so great to be around: Ascencio's, Gilbert, &Serafin. 

I have friends; who can look me in my eyes &tell me the truth.

One of the most loyal people I have in my life 

is my boyfriend, best friend, and better half.

He has been there for me at my highs and lows,

he has seen me in every aspect; and he still loves me.

I am lucky enough to be surrounded by the people I love;

&the people that love me.

They're there for me everyday

&this is to say Thank you.

We don't appreciate the little things in life;

well I don't, at least not enough. 

We never know when these things will be gone, 

we never act like we will never see these things again.

WHO AM I?

I am a lucky girl; who's blessed to have this group of people in my life.

Let's be thankful for what we have;

because if we aren't 

we will regret it one day....

Lead your life everyday in a positive way,

forget your problems, 

and focus on what makes you live everyday.

&Let those people know how special they are to you;

even when they get sick of it.

Be happy &grateful; because some people will never experience what you have....

The ONE..

The one
You can't always be the one.
Usually she always is the one.
But if you're always the one,
Then you're on a one way street.
A one way street is not where she
Wants to be...

She is the one who speaks up,
Says what on her mind,
Doesn't avoid or ignore a situation.
She has always been seen as mature,
Responsible, &A problem solver.
But... How long can you be the only one? When will someone else be the one?
When will someone not care what others think, &speak what on their mind? Or... Has not one person thought in their mind that anything needs to be said?

The one, is tired of being the one, she has always had a big heart no matter the situation esp. when it comes to the people she cares about, but when the people she cares about choose not to care about what's going on,
Then lets call it a day, because last she checked high school is over, college is taking forever, jobs are stressful, &planning events is a hassle; in other words, the kids grew up, they're now adults; young adults.
Adults who know what's right &wrong, adults that can admit their mistakes; &adults that can address a situation.

If that's not what these young adults are capable of, then these young adults will simply become mere acquaintances...

Broken Relationship

Broken Relationship?

What happens to it?

This is a quick story of a lady and gent

who were once in love.

They were very young,

&their relationship was encouraged by others.

They were a match, &it seemed the only

problem in the way was their curiosity...

At first, like always, their love and lust for each other

took advantage, and as time went on their love grew.

They always went out and made their relationship fun,

then some years went by, & keeping it interesting was the challenge.

They were happy for a while, but like other couples

they wanted to see what else was out there.

It's hard when you're in love so young,

you don't want to wonder "What If?" when you're older.

That's a personal decision, 

of whether to fight for the relationship,

let it go, or try and do both. 

Yes, try and do both is and sounds bad, but everyone makes mistakes. 

Incidents happened, and the two ended up in different books, 

He was behind in chapters, while she was writing her own. 

Her love for him never went away, but her curiosity grew,

more and more everyday.

The only thing that stood between them were 

the mistakes both of them made, 

but both of them knew, and couldn't stay away from each other,

 nor could they be together.

It's a sad story, but a lesson learned because 

Love is a hard thing to handle, especially that young. 

Can you blame someone for mistakes they've made in their past forever, 

or can you love them enough to forgive them and take a second chance?

The saddest thing in life is to never experience real love.... the best is to find your true love. The worst is to THINK you found a real love, but in reality your real love is still searching for YOU. 

Some things....

Some things are better with out,

some are not,

some act better than others, 

some do not.

Some have a stick up their ass,

some have their head up another's, 

some may not know anything,

some may know it all.

Some act all the time, 

some may stay quiet,

some may always say it out loud, 

and some may avoid it.

SOME are too busy,

some aren't busy enough,

some are guys, 

some are girls.

Some are closer than the ones

expected to be,

Some point fingers,

some just whisper when they can,

some of you can relate, 

others are lucky enough not to

some keep it a secret,

&others don't...

Think about it.

&see what happens...